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Journal Entry: Mon Aug 29, 2011, 3:51 AM





:thumb170668097: Have You Ever? Have You ever Fallen in love,
But knew that they didnt care?

Have you ever felt like crying,
But knew you would get No-where?

Have you ever watched them walk away,
and not wanted them to go?

Have you ever wispered ''I Love You'' softly,
hoping they would hear?

Have you ever cried all night in misery,
and gone insane?

Theres nothing other in this world,
that causes so much pain.

if i had a choice between life and death
i think i would rather die,

Love is fun.
but it hurts too much,
to say goodbye.

& the price you pay is way too high.

So my advice,
dont fall in love
you'll be hurt before its through,
you see my friend,
i social anxiety II. the knot in my chest
tightens and
tightens
with each word
i must force out

,

you compliment me
but all i can do
is give a half-hearted smile
and keep the breakdown inside

,

i miss you
and you miss me
but i can't seem to laugh
the way we used to

,

you let me cry
on your shoulder
but now we don't
even look each other's way
i'm so sorry darling

,

i'm tired of bawling
on the bathroom floor
makeup runs /
eyes swell /
questioning stares /
and repeat

,

...

,

pills can only get us
so far
before we dizzy up

and all fall down . Anxiety It begins with a melancholy
feeling deep inside my soul. Something
pushes it deeper until I
can't handle it anymore. I stop
breathing for a few seconds.
My chest heaves and my lungs take
in a deep, ragged breath. They
get addicted to these sharp
stings. I start to hyperventillate.
I rock forward. I rock backward. I rock
forward and backward and forward
and backward. I rock. I rock. I pull
my hair down. I smooth it out. I smooth my
hair and rock forward and backward and
heave in another ragged breath. One
tear builds up in each eye until
they decide to take the plunge down
my cheeks. The right tear falls onto my
chest with a


Thank you sooooooo much to the Anonymous Deviant gave me a Premium Membership :tighthug:
:thumb243224323:        :thumb253217664:            First Time Day: 31
First time I haven't wanted to die on New Year's Eve.
First time I haven't dreaded a new year.
Day: 01
First day of the New Year.
First day of my new life.
Day:11
First time thinking about how wonderful life is going to be.
First time trying to care about my health.
Day: 21
Hasn't happened yet, but I hope that it leads to many
Firsts to come.

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Mood: Joy ~doctorwhofan747 6 days ago  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks so much for the llama! It's much appreciated c:

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Just because I'm British does not mean that I like tea, One Direction, nor do I speak like I'm posh...
If I haven't scared you off, come talk to me c:
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Mood: Joy ~BlueMaxx86 Apr 18, 2012
Great gallery.
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~hopelessfreek Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you :hug: and thanks for the watch :D
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Mood: Affection ~IntensiveGrudges Apr 17, 2012
hello!! how do u do?! it had been a long my friend~
i hope u'r doing fine <3 and sorry for not asking more about u.
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~hopelessfreek Apr 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm doing well surprisingly.I set up a new account so I m rarely on this one.I haven't drawn in ages also.How are you? :tighthug:
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